The Beauty of Meditation
I decided I wanted to write something positive today, had a feeling there might be a need for some and I know for myself, I got into a heated religious debate a couple of days ago that I need to rid my space of.
Lately I’ve found the beauty of meditation. As a child I was always interested in Eastern religions and thought they were so neat. I figure it must be because I have Roma (aka gypsy) heritage and they originated in India so their culture still holds a lot of Hindu practices. My family doesn’t but I believe you inherit more than DNA.
The church I was raised in shunned everything, psychics, mediums, meditation, chanting, holding your hands up when singing, guitars and drums in church, going to movies, going dancing, going to a bar (angels cannot go inside?), anything of “this world”. It was very oppressive and made you feel very unhappy and a wretched soul that should be crying out to God to have mercy that he might find it in his heart to forgive you somewhere for not being perfect. Well I left. I realized I didn’t want my kids in that stuff because it didn’t bring happiness like religion should. So I completely abandoned Christianity. I still believe Jesus had a lot of great things to say and if people could actually live by them, the world would be a great place. Muslims and Christians both believe Jesus is supposed to be revered so why do they keep fighting?
Anyway, I was speaking with a woman who has the same medical condition I do, it is called dysautonomia (autonomic dysfunction) which has caused peripheral neuropathy in both of us. She is big into meditation and crystal healing and such and she led me to a website that talked about the healing power of meditation and all that jazz. I didn’t really buy the crystal thing, I think the mind is capable of healing the body in many ways as well as protecting it. Maybe I’m weird but I believe in auras (energy fields around people) and have touched people and made them feel my pain (by complete accident I don’t want to inflict pain on anyone) as well as relieved pain from my touch as well. I had no idea of this until I was speaking with a customer in the pharmacy who was having a rough day, she was an elderly woman and she began to sob, I reached out to touch her hand and she said “Oh my, your hands feel wonderful they have given me such a beautiful feeling inside of me, I’ve never experienced that before” and she began to smile. I stood there in shock and said “Really? Hmm. I’ve never noticed that before either.” So I began experimenting with my fiance.
When I feel the pain from neuropathy and I touch his hand he will ask me if I have a pain in the spot that he is feeling it and yes it is the same spot, every time. I take my hand away because I don’t want him to hurt but he grabs it again and says “let me take it, give it to me.” Once jokingly I even yelled “Take this pain!” and touched him not expecting it to do anything and he jumped up yelling and said “Why did you do that?!?” after I touched his arm. I felt really bad and apologized because I didn’t mean to hurt him it just kind of happened.
So after nursing school (well after the MSN is received) I’m thinking of learning reiki as well, I think it will help my HIV patients a lot. I know this mysticism stuff sounds like hogwash to a lot of people but maybe our brains are more powerful than we think. I believe people see angels and demons because they believe they exist and it is manifestations of their brain into energies so maybe all of this isn’t “powers” but my brain utilizing it’s limbic system or what have you.
Through meditation I’ve also learned to activate my amygdala (third eye) which is the coolest feeling, it is like a tingling, swirling, sometimes strong feeling just above my eyebrows in the middle of my forehead. Meditation has healed a lot of my physical and emotional pain and for that I am grateful. It does much more for me than prayer ever did. Although sometimes I let my anger get the best of me, I do feel like more of a peaceful person and I just want to love everyone. I want to help as many people as possible improve their lives.
My current patient and I have developed a bond I didn’t expect, much stronger than the others. She is still hospitalized and when she found out I wouldn’t be back until Friday and may not see me if she left, fear filled her face. I felt so bad, my strength kept her going and I realized that. I’ve called her every day (I cleared with my professor if this was okay) just to give her some comfort and let her know I truly care.
Meditation has opened up something I never knew before. It has allowed me to be kind and loving without having to worry about silly rules and regulations. When I do no harm, the result is good. When I am sad, angry, happy, anything I can meditate and the peace floods in. It doesn’t even take a lot of time. I like the chakra cleansing meditation a lot, and lately I have felt less pain and have been able to use much less pain medication.
It truly has made a wonderful difference in my life.
How do you cope with what ails you?
